So glad to be back to writing! I've always had this thing where I only wrote when things were dismal. It seemed to boring to sit down and write when things were going well. But when my back was up against the wall or when my stomach was in knots, I had to write to breathe. Well, being a writer, I'm always writing in my head, there's always an imaginary audience that I am interfacing with and that's what makes blogging so cool. It's like you are having the conversation in your head but you get to share it with an audience that may find it beneficial.
So today I'm in my second day of jury duty and it's the second day of the month and there's something that just feels significant about that. Along with the current transition to fall it just felt like a good time to write so here I am. One thing I love about writing in my blog is that I get to see how cyclical life is... there are times when I feel like I'm thinking or realizing something for the first time and then I read my blog only to discover that I had this realization a long time ago and I'm just (re)membering it again. Life is like that, we know who we are only to lose who we are, only to find who we are again.
There's been a lot going on since the last time I wrote. There are some things I'm more sure of while other things I'm more unsure about. One thing is for certain, all things work together for the good of those who love the Lord, who are called according to His purpose. So I know that no matter how crazy it looks today, it is all working out for my good.
This weekend it was heavy on my mind to pray for and consider my ancestors. Some of the things we go through are about us and the choices that we make, but somethings are also passed down from others iniquities, so trying to understand what things need to be uncovered and dealt with are the season I am in right now.
What came to me over the weekend was that I had a dream that I was walking around, looking for something and as I was walking around people kept vomiting and their vomit was getting on me and as I was walking I was looking for a restroom to wash up but I couldn't find any. So I finally get to this restaurant with my husband and this Asian lady came to the table. I told her what happened (I think I told it to her as if it was a dream in which it happened). She said this was the ancestors letting me know that the ancestors were letting me know that they were not healed, that I needed to complete the healing so they could rest. I woke up overwhelmed with a need to pray for the unresolved wounds of our ancestors.
When I asked God what I was supposed to do with the information that I had been given, I was told to do the following:
1. Make a list of the family transgressions by name: e.g. Uncle John- alcohol, Grandpa- adultery, etc.
2. Pray a prayer of repentance for those specific sins: e.g. I repent for Grandpa for his cheating on Grandma- I stand in the gap and ask for forgiveness of his sins and the seeds that were planted in his sin.
3. Make a list of those in your blood line that were brokenhearted- be as specific as possible- e.g. Aunt was brokenhearted when her first husband died.
4. Pray for those brokenhearted.
Do the same things for all of your children and then for yourself. What transgressions do you see in your children that came from your ancestors? Call them out by name. A transgression is a sin that is repeated over and over until an individual is in bondage and no longer even feels bad about the action. Job repented for the sins of his children so stand in the gap and repent on behalf of your children.
I believe that God wants to set us free but He also wants us to see that our immediate family is our first ministry. So many are called to ministry but their families and personal lives are in shambles. There is no victory in that. Others will be drawn when they see the power of God at work in your life. Let's go back so we can go forward!
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